This self portrait is the result of an exceptionally difficult year. During a bout of deep depression about the world, aging, and my career, I posed in my studio to create a self portrait that would reflect my state of mind. Defiance has been present in my work but what I was feeling that day was more. I was fed up and angry and I wanted to create a painting that expressed the intensity of my emotions. I’m raw, provocative, beastly, and vulnerable and I want the viewer to see my true self. The painting pushes beyond high-realism into exaggerated detail to express the intensity of my existential crisis.