An ephemeris is a table or data file giving the calculated positions of a celestial object at regular intervals throughout a period. I love astronomy and find painting inspiration in the spectacular images of celestial objects and systems that NASA provides. But for this body of work, I have been creating an internal ephemeris that tracks my moods, emotions, and mental state during the pandemic. The patterning and brush strokes are based on celestial phenomena, but the sucking darkness that eats away at the canvases, the fraught palette clashes, the sweeping swathes of calm tempered by deep sadness, the lively bursts of frenetic joy—all of these feelings personified in color are my internal ephemeris.