Nicole's Story Behind The Painting:
Sometimes, I paint what I’m still looking for the words to describe or what I’m trying to understand or … I don’t know. I titled this painting “Tangled” when I made it in 2021. Yet just as these can be tangled threads, they can be paths crossing.
There have been times I stayed because I had nowhere to run. But that’s not really staying, is it? That’s being controlled, trapped, caged.
I’m learning the difference. I’m learning that my worry about getting stuck is based in the pain I feel about the reality of my past. I was stuck. I was trapped. But I’m not anymore. I’m free now. I could spend my whole life running, sprinting, seeing everything there is to see, roaming, scattering. I could say that that’s the life I’ve always wanted - to be free to go. But it’s not true for me, really. I want to feel free and safe enough to stay, truly stay. Because I like it here. Because I’m okay. Because I’m loved here and I like the way it feels to not be so alone anymore.
Sometimes, freedom means being able to leave and follow my own path. And sometimes, it means making my own choice to commit, connect, be a part of something bigger right here.
- Subject Matter: connection, tangled threads, paths crossing, becoming a part of something bigger, finding community
- Created: 2021
- Collections: Abstract, Love Letters to Mother Earth