My work is anti-cynical and anti-nihilistic. It enacts futility, collapse, destruction, emptiness, incoherence and failure, firstly and only, in order to then demonstrate meaning's persistence. This comes from a place of self-conscious indeterminism, which is generated by resisting and blurring binary oppositions. It is to be neither this or that, to be neither brittle nor intangible. It is a practice of letting go and re-asserting control incompletely. It is a cycle of loss and reclamation, obscuring and revealing and obscuring again. It is a place in which an audience may also embrace indeterminism, and therefore perform an irrational, romantic act. My works both perform and present an opportunity to self-consciously let go of the strictly rational and cynical in favor of irrationality and sentimentality.