Heart

The fresh blood and flesh of your precious organ is cradled by a thick beige slathering of the mundane, that which covers everything and gives us eyes which see nothing. Delusions of knowledge are all we have. This the tiny earnest part of you that relentlessly knocks on a door inside of you--pounding and pounding, begging for freedom from the nihilistic trance, until one day it releases and knocks no more. If you're lucky a bit of your little blood smear will remain behind so people will see there really was a human in there.

Through indirect abstractions Caitlin McCollom wishes to represent the quiet panic of the disordered mind and the beautiful decay of the diseased body. The paintings are made using acrylic paint, oil paint, varnish, ink and watercolor on synthetic paper. Employed is a limited palette of neutral colors and red. Each color has a supreme symbolic meaning. Red always represents the physical body—blood, viscera, decay, and visual physicality of the body itself. The neutral warm and cool beiges represent the outward flesh, the reality of the world and the prison of the body. The anfractuous nature of the intestines is sampled in the deliberately curling strokes, and the pooling of the various flesh colored materials is meant to recall medical images. White, the most sacred color, is always about the existential void. White is the unknowable space that the mind contemplates. The whiteness of the paper always surrounds the painted image, so that each one is immersed in the chaos of the mind and appearing as a religious icon. The work however, though its conceptual matter is rooted in the presence of body and mind related distress, is meant to be a visual experience of beauty. Reframing the human reaction to disease with disgust into one of curiosity is a primary objective within the work.

The paintings are corporeal and existential in nature; reacting to the body, the greater reality, and the existential space that is explained in theory by philosophers, theologians, and mystics while exploring a personal existential pathology— a physical fear reaction to meaninglessness. Her work interprets the internal body, external reality, and the mysterious unknowable aspects of existence.